06/03/2020: Embarrassment and Hatred

In the first break time, my ball went towards Martina, and she hit the ball in the opposite direction just to piss me off. In the second breaktime, I was playing with me ball, and when it went towards Martina and her friend, they started passing each other, and I had to take the ball from them, like a dog. I took it from them, but the breaktime was over, and when I was about to go inside, I remembered that I forgot my umbrella. When I was about to come out to take my umbrella, I slipped and fell off. Martina laughed at me and made a joke about me and my ball. When I got up, and went to take my umbrella, Luis was passing by me with a basketball ball and he started doing like he was going to play with me, or do something with me. When I took my umbrella, and went inside, I was behind Luis and Ekaitz in the queue. They were talking, and someone pushed Luis, and he collided in me. After that, he said immediately, he started saying that i had to calm down. In reality, i didn't had said anything, or done. I said him that I was calmed down, and then, he repeated what I said in a derisioning way. I didn't say anything. At the stairs, Ekaitz put his arm in front of me holding the railing. He didnt let me pass, and when I strongly pushed his arm, he looked at me very angry.

I wanted to cry in class, not because I fell, but because Martina laughed at me. And everything that happened, made me full of rage and hate, and I became King Of Mean.

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